Okay
Yo... ive been focusing on the wrong thing and now its time to go back to the right things... sooo I've never done this before.. but I am doing it now.. going on Girl Strike... yeah.. I need a girlcation... They are just taking over too much of my brain space.. and so now i'm going to just focus on me.. working out.. handling business.. and eating right.. and leaving these hussies alone... okay.. I never really messed with hussies before... but ya know.. leaving these women alone.. They gotta go.. out of my brain space and out of my pocket book.. Sure I'll kick it.. sure we can hang out.. but I am officially focusing on my friends and my family and not that other stuff... And as I focus on the right things... I know the right things will come in my life... thank you thank you thank you... :-)
Affirmation: I am focused on those things in my life that bring me happiness and bring comfort and security. I release everything that brings feelings of insecurity, discomfort, or fear. My thoughts will make my life bigger and fuller than ever before. :-)
Affirmation: I am focused on those things in my life that bring me happiness and bring comfort and security. I release everything that brings feelings of insecurity, discomfort, or fear. My thoughts will make my life bigger and fuller than ever before. :-)
Snow Day
I learned a lot about myself through my Snow Week.
1. I could never work from home.
2. I should probably never be a stay at home mom.
3. I kinda dig hanging out with myself cause I'm pretty awesome.
but I think the biggest take away was something that just came to me like a lightbulb moment. I was sitting there and I was thinking... and and the thought popped into my head.. "I want a dad." In a lot of ways I feel like I've never had a dad. I feel like it's a relationship I never got to have. It's hard because when I was a kid I always thought I could patch things up with my dad. I thought we'd get to have some deliverance moment where we could talk and see each other eye to eye. I thought I'd get to be daddy's little girl again, but then in a blink of an eye, your life changes.. and some life changes aren't temporary.. some can't be brought back on track.There are some things that change in a minute but last your whole life time. I'll never get to see my dad again. I'll never get to remember what he sounds like or smells like or looks like.. I'll never have that. And I wish I hadn't taken it for granted. He used to call and I would be so mad... mad that he only called once a week, made that his birthday cards came late. Mad that he would ask me things that I felt like he should know, cause he was my dad and dad's should know where field trips are and what i'm doing. I remember he came to school late to pick me up and i would just be fuming. I was mad. I was sad. I was angry. I was hurt. I was too young to understand and appreciate anything. And there is no one to call and talk to or to explain it to because I can't make a new dad, or find one on the street. so I have to mend that hole in my heart by myself. It also makes me think about having my own child and would I be wrong to have a child when there isn't a dad there to do the same things I am mentioning.
Earth shaking Snow Day today kids. Shrug.
Snow Day Take Away 4: Michael Jackson, the Experience is so much more fun to watch other people play LOL
1. I could never work from home.
2. I should probably never be a stay at home mom.
3. I kinda dig hanging out with myself cause I'm pretty awesome.
but I think the biggest take away was something that just came to me like a lightbulb moment. I was sitting there and I was thinking... and and the thought popped into my head.. "I want a dad." In a lot of ways I feel like I've never had a dad. I feel like it's a relationship I never got to have. It's hard because when I was a kid I always thought I could patch things up with my dad. I thought we'd get to have some deliverance moment where we could talk and see each other eye to eye. I thought I'd get to be daddy's little girl again, but then in a blink of an eye, your life changes.. and some life changes aren't temporary.. some can't be brought back on track.There are some things that change in a minute but last your whole life time. I'll never get to see my dad again. I'll never get to remember what he sounds like or smells like or looks like.. I'll never have that. And I wish I hadn't taken it for granted. He used to call and I would be so mad... mad that he only called once a week, made that his birthday cards came late. Mad that he would ask me things that I felt like he should know, cause he was my dad and dad's should know where field trips are and what i'm doing. I remember he came to school late to pick me up and i would just be fuming. I was mad. I was sad. I was angry. I was hurt. I was too young to understand and appreciate anything. And there is no one to call and talk to or to explain it to because I can't make a new dad, or find one on the street. so I have to mend that hole in my heart by myself. It also makes me think about having my own child and would I be wrong to have a child when there isn't a dad there to do the same things I am mentioning.
Earth shaking Snow Day today kids. Shrug.
Snow Day Take Away 4: Michael Jackson, the Experience is so much more fun to watch other people play LOL
New Word
Friendcest:
When one of your friends dates your siblings.... gross.
Illegal in every state where I live.
When one of your friends dates your siblings.... gross.
Illegal in every state where I live.
WOOT WOOT
Tomorrow is a snow day.. I love it.. This is why i started teaching for random days off.. okay that's bs....
but on my snow day I am going to... watch movies, eat a good breakfast... have fun... read.... and text everyone who is awesome.. ;-) I might even call a few of them..
:-) I still llvver her.... she's still the first thing on my mind... but i'm letting it all work itself out... sooo love love llove.
but on my snow day I am going to... watch movies, eat a good breakfast... have fun... read.... and text everyone who is awesome.. ;-) I might even call a few of them..
:-) I still llvver her.... she's still the first thing on my mind... but i'm letting it all work itself out... sooo love love llove.
New Years Eve
Today is New Years Eve.. I am currently battling allergies, respiratory infection and such... but enjoying the day helping my mom is da bomb :-) I am just in love with my mommy dearest and wit the year I have had... I had some downs.. but I've had so many more ups that I can't even be m ad.. i dont even have any resolutions to make.. except for this one..
1. I'm doing everything that's fun!
Everything.. if it's fun.. I;m on it. I am enjoying each day and travelling and not worrying about the dumbness that comes with alot of things in life. I am not sweating the small stuff.. or wondering what it is i need to do... to make this or that happen. I'm just going to live my life... and I'm going to do it for me.. not in the hopes of anything or anyone else... Just for me :-) cause that's the way I roll :-) I love you. I truly do.
expect the unexpected and be open to it. :-)
1. I'm doing everything that's fun!
Everything.. if it's fun.. I;m on it. I am enjoying each day and travelling and not worrying about the dumbness that comes with alot of things in life. I am not sweating the small stuff.. or wondering what it is i need to do... to make this or that happen. I'm just going to live my life... and I'm going to do it for me.. not in the hopes of anything or anyone else... Just for me :-) cause that's the way I roll :-) I love you. I truly do.
expect the unexpected and be open to it. :-)
Have you ever had...
the Michael Jackson Experience...
If not.. you must try it.. my arms are sore, thighs are tight... but I promise you... have it for a night and you'll keep going back. ..
mmmmhmmmm
If not.. you must try it.. my arms are sore, thighs are tight... but I promise you... have it for a night and you'll keep going back. ..
mmmmhmmmm
I did it.
I lit a fire in my fireplace and I am slowly crossing off all of the things I am doing before I turn 30. Going to a vineyard on Saturday... and gonna knock some other stuff down in the new year.
I am so glad that my life has taken this turn. :-) It wasn't what I thought I wanted.. but it has forced me to become more me. .:-) It has forced me to do things that I didn't think I could do. I am happy. I have my want in me. Just happiness and love. a love for life and for each moment and each opportunity as it presents itself. :-) I love my life.. it is amazing.
I am so glad that my life has taken this turn. :-) It wasn't what I thought I wanted.. but it has forced me to become more me. .:-) It has forced me to do things that I didn't think I could do. I am happy. I have my want in me. Just happiness and love. a love for life and for each moment and each opportunity as it presents itself. :-) I love my life.. it is amazing.