I dont want to blog this

cause I dont want to share this.. and this is a moment when I wish this space on the web was anonymous and private... but i know its not.

i stopped taking my happy pills and the intensity of my thoughts has returned. Im not sure if this is good or bad. I find myself wanting to have long intimate conversations. It's like an attic or a basement has been reopened in my psyche and some of the things that have returned to me are treasures and i treasured them... and then there are cobwebs and some junk that needs to be thrown away...

So, do i keep the attic open or close the door and return to a balanced state..

im not sure. im certainly not sure.