wow...

So, there are times when I think that I am totally satisfied with my life until I go on vacation. Okay so I didnt go on a serious vacay this weekend, just out to the burbs. But in GA, the burbs are like the woods anyway. So while I was out there, I lounged and ate, I didnt think about work. I played games and acted silly, fun fun fun. And then today hit and I realized OMG, tomorrow I have to go back to work.. and I dont like that. I dont miss work, I dont really wanna go to work and if they said I could enjoy a constant vacay with pay I would do it in a heartbeat. I want a job I want to go to and I dont have that.

Now I know in these economic times that I need to be grateful that I am employed, and I am! I am definitely grateful that I have a job. I am not quitting. I don't want to be a bum, But I do want to know what will make me happy to go to every morning and do, and I am not sure if I have one of those things. or maybe I do, but I'm just afraid to do it because it (costs too much money/takes time from other things/what if I'm not good at it.. fill in other excuse here) I don't know. I am temporarily down in the dumps, retuning myself to get back into the reality of life because guess what. I haven't been sleeping in months, and I need to do something different. I dont know. It's just back to reality an dI want my reality to look a little different.

anyone else ever feel this way.

3 comments:

b.enchanted said...

Every day of my life. I thought working in education would somehow make my life meaningful... but I've come to realize in 2 short years that unfortunately, I am just a pawn in the nation's failed education system. There has to be something better for me. And you.

What is your passion? Is there anything you would want to do? Call me. I have a few ideas. Let's discuss this in more detail.

T said...

Working out might help. I know it sounds crazy, but endorphins are real. And you can lose whatever weight you've been wanting to lose. Try it for 7 straight days and I guarantee you'll be in a better short-term mood, even if your long-term mood doesn't change.

Spiderlgs said...

Funny you said this. I just started working out actually 7 days ago LOL. I haven't done it 7 days but 4 of the 7 and I do feel better. I know working out is what I need to do.. and ive been doing it> i gotta get my shape together for a spring full of events. and I'm sick of looking at the pooch goodness.. You are correct. many multiple benefits to getting the heart pumping. that's the next blog. Thanks for the positive reinforcement!

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