2 Week Experiment.

I'm trying something new... i will not discuss it until the experiment is over... updates coming... holla at me in 2 weeks cause I will probably forget...  definitely

Bizarro Dreams

So I had this dream the other day that I was getting married and I was looking around and my father wasn't there and so I went ahead and got married anyway... My mom asked what was wrong and I told her Dad wasnt there and then she said.. oh, I didnt know you had invited him..and I said, yeah I did... She said oh, i'm sorry honey..

Next day, we are having a brunch and he strolls in in a nice summer suit, I must say, with a woman behind him.. I couldn't see her.  I noticed that my Dad looked really good.. and he came with all smiles and hugged me.. and I said, where were you yesterday?  and he said... Oh, well I figured since I'd see you here, I didnt need to come yesterday.. I'm here now babe.. You look great.

So I slapped him... he said more.. and I slapped the shit out of him again...

then I woke up from the force of the slap.

I mulled over this for a few days.. I'll tell you how I resolved it in the next post... 

ahhh, YUP, cliffhanger bitches!!!!  Keep my readers coming back ;-)


I am on p90x day 3.  It's insane!!! but I love it.. my body doesnt hurt as much as i thought it would... and I can already see a difference in my abs.. I've eaten tons of crazy shit in the past two days buuuuut I'm still feeling good.. 

90 days.. well 87 more days and its on :-)  

The Curious Case of Lace Fronts

Why, why, why, black women, must we wear lacefronts?   It does not look nice. It doesnt look beautiful.  You look insane. Your fake hair makes you look fake and in more case curiously more insecure than the confidence you have tried to embody withyour hair flowing down to your thighs. 

When you decide to get those China Doll bangs like Foxy Brown, ala 1996, you look insane too.  When you put the red or blonde in the back you look even more disturbing... and when you pair it with face eyelashes and all kinds of body tattoos... i find you.. hmmm depressing? I can't quite think of the word.

And lastly... why must your daughters succumb the same fate. Why does she need to have 20 lbs of hair on her head... and even worse.. you dont even get her a lace front.. you just put tracks in the back of her head... then as her new growth grows out, you send her to school looking worse and worse each day.. her desperately brushing her mane, hoping that with it, she will grow some self esteem..but sadly, but showing her that her hair isnt good enough.. you taught her she isnt either. So she will add layer upon layer of fake hair, fake color, fake padding and fake attitude... hoping someone will notice her... because she doesnt think she is good enough just as she is..

The thing about lace is that its beauty is often betrayed by its delicacy.. What is beautiful at first glance.. then turns into an intricate pattern of holes... that we can all see through... right to the knotted wooden table, or scarred leg that lies underneath.  


So this trip to miami has elucidated so many things. My love for the water and the waves and the sand and the sun. How wonderful my friends are.  I mean they are so wonderful and amazing that its sickening. That life alwyas works itself out and stress is unnecessary. That love is wonderful and I am blessed to have so many forms of it in my life.   Amen. 

Im thinking i'm giving my power away. Now I get to think about how I am gonna take it back :-)