i hate twilight

i hate twilight, new moon, breaking dawn and eclipse. I hate stephenie meyer, edward, bella, jacob, billy, charlie, renee, alice, emmett, seth, embry, esme, carlisle, all of them. leah.. every single character, every actor who plays them. I hate it all, with a passion unmatched. If it would all disappear, I would watch Nancy Grace every night religiously. and i am dead serious. sigh


Today I worked out.. that makes three days this week.. each day I don't want to..I just force myself. .i love it once I start.. but i cant remember that i will love it
when i leave my job and think aaahhh i wanna lay on the couch with a beeer. I hate it. But I do it.. and I end up loving it.

I also hate the feeling of my fat sloshing around when i run.. but the worst part is that I have to keep running to not feel it slosh around on my stomach. womp.

I have also flossed everyday... :-)
Goals for the end of the year.

1. floss EVERY single day
2. Work out 4 days a week
3. finish a boot camp
4. finish 3 more books
5. Lose 10 pounds
6. learn to make 2 new healthy dishes
7. Smile more.

I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can!

What if the rest of your life was the best of your life? <---- my motto forever


Saturday is truly my day of rest. I dont do nothing. Sometimes I feel like I should be doing something but hell to the naw.. im gonna catch up on my shows and eat some food and maybe not get out of bed... its loverly to have the leisure to do so... i dont think this post has a point.. but thats what im doing right now, nothing hahaha

book lover

I got a new library card today. I moved, and so now I live in a municipality with a different library system and I am in love with the fact that the country created libraries. SO many books.. so little time.. you can browse and peruse.. you can read and re-read.. and all for free. (until you turn your books in late, which I always do) But whatever.

Just enough for the nerd in me to get a little high. Nothing better than looking through rows and rows of books of all different titles.

I also bought some used book at a book sale at my school this weekend. i wonder who has read them and what they thought.. did they finish it.. did they love it or hate it.. do they feel the same feelings I feel as I read the book...hmmm


Let me tell you why I teach. I teach because there are students whose eyes light up when they see me everyday. they wave at me in the hallway and make it their business to stop by my room just to say hello. Some come and ask me for advice and some of them go out of their way to draw me pictures or talk to me. I am a teacher because for the time I have my students I know that I might be opening and child's eyes to a possibility, or making them feel safe and welcome... and that is priceless.

I know that I can't do everything for every child and for some I'll just be another teacher they will have long forgotten. But I had teachers who changed my life, and who I worked harder than I ever thought i could work in order to make them proud. In my darkest days I had teachers who were patient and kind to me; those were moments that changed my life.. and I teach not hoping for the recognition of those moments, but knowing that each moment has that potential.

SO I show up everyday.. I try to smile everyday... and i am just as thankful to my students as they sometimes are for me..

and also. I love it when they learn something. gosh.. being able to teach someone something new. to see the F student get an A.. to push a child hard and see the results.. makes the bad days worth it and the worse days just par for the course. I teach because its probably my calling.. even when I don't feel like answering it.

Let's stop talking about it...

So, Derrion Albert was like the saddest thing all week. Derrion. Kermit. I'm sure you could add a name of a young black man killed over something dumb. True, Derrion was an honor student and Kermit was a college student, but every death is just as senseless when its over gangs, or drugs, or bullshit or just because. I am committed to stop talking about change from my Ivory Tower. Stop pontificating on the socioeconomic factors and the culture of poverty or the gentrification that may or may not be a factor, and I am committing myself to doing something to stop the bs.

1. I am already a mentor, but I am pledging to take those relationships beyond the superficial and commit more of my time and energy to my mentees.

2. I am going to look into volunteering more at programs that provide a safe haven for kids to stay off the street. Then after I look into it, I am going to commit to it.

What are you gonna do? We can't wait for the government or some city initiative. and where you are, I promise down the street there are kids who wish they could see a way out, and a different choice for their life...

How are you going to Be about it?