wow...

So, there are times when I think that I am totally satisfied with my life until I go on vacation. Okay so I didnt go on a serious vacay this weekend, just out to the burbs. But in GA, the burbs are like the woods anyway. So while I was out there, I lounged and ate, I didnt think about work. I played games and acted silly, fun fun fun. And then today hit and I realized OMG, tomorrow I have to go back to work.. and I dont like that. I dont miss work, I dont really wanna go to work and if they said I could enjoy a constant vacay with pay I would do it in a heartbeat. I want a job I want to go to and I dont have that.

Now I know in these economic times that I need to be grateful that I am employed, and I am! I am definitely grateful that I have a job. I am not quitting. I don't want to be a bum, But I do want to know what will make me happy to go to every morning and do, and I am not sure if I have one of those things. or maybe I do, but I'm just afraid to do it because it (costs too much money/takes time from other things/what if I'm not good at it.. fill in other excuse here) I don't know. I am temporarily down in the dumps, retuning myself to get back into the reality of life because guess what. I haven't been sleeping in months, and I need to do something different. I dont know. It's just back to reality an dI want my reality to look a little different.

anyone else ever feel this way.