Guess what I am giving up?
i am giving up alcohol for Lent. Insane. I know. I decided I needed to do something that would actually be difficult and that would net me some strong benefits. Its going to be a wild and crazy 46 days. I'll keep you posted! Are you giving up anything? do tell.
wow...
So, there are times when I think that I am totally satisfied with my life until I go on vacation. Okay so I didnt go on a serious vacay this weekend, just out to the burbs. But in GA, the burbs are like the woods anyway. So while I was out there, I lounged and ate, I didnt think about work. I played games and acted silly, fun fun fun. And then today hit and I realized OMG, tomorrow I have to go back to work.. and I dont like that. I dont miss work, I dont really wanna go to work and if they said I could enjoy a constant vacay with pay I would do it in a heartbeat. I want a job I want to go to and I dont have that.
Now I know in these economic times that I need to be grateful that I am employed, and I am! I am definitely grateful that I have a job. I am not quitting. I don't want to be a bum, But I do want to know what will make me happy to go to every morning and do, and I am not sure if I have one of those things. or maybe I do, but I'm just afraid to do it because it (costs too much money/takes time from other things/what if I'm not good at it.. fill in other excuse here) I don't know. I am temporarily down in the dumps, retuning myself to get back into the reality of life because guess what. I haven't been sleeping in months, and I need to do something different. I dont know. It's just back to reality an dI want my reality to look a little different.
anyone else ever feel this way.
Now I know in these economic times that I need to be grateful that I am employed, and I am! I am definitely grateful that I have a job. I am not quitting. I don't want to be a bum, But I do want to know what will make me happy to go to every morning and do, and I am not sure if I have one of those things. or maybe I do, but I'm just afraid to do it because it (costs too much money/takes time from other things/what if I'm not good at it.. fill in other excuse here) I don't know. I am temporarily down in the dumps, retuning myself to get back into the reality of life because guess what. I haven't been sleeping in months, and I need to do something different. I dont know. It's just back to reality an dI want my reality to look a little different.
anyone else ever feel this way.
Uppppdate
So, have I eaten meat in the past 14 days? Yes. When, you ask? Superbowl Sunday I maxed some chicken wings! But other than that I haven't had any meat. I have had some cheese though. Twice. Overall, I have done some good things. Currently, I am 154. That's cool because I haven't worked out either. I have felt so much better as of late. More energy, happier, just in general feeling healthy.. so I thinK i can definitely do it for a while longer. I am aiming toward March 1, with with exception of V-Day because I am going to have a seafood EXTRAVAGANZA with the boo.
In other news...
The lady with octuplets is INSANE.
For the Love of Ray J is a Sin. (B, you better NOT be watching it.)
I did my taxes and am getting a N-i-i-c-e REFUND! yahoo
it seems ALL of my friends will be married in the next two years and I aint a bit jealous. just happy :-)
Girl Scout Cookie season is the best. I cant wait for the deliveries.
My brother is insane. Check out his 25 things(s) on FB.
I am reading books. Flowers for Algernon and The Giver (kid lit for the j-o-b)
My hair is fabulous. Still.
I am addicted to dried mangoes.
Big Love is the best!
Sweet potato fries are kinda like crack.
Do white people know we are talking about them when we point to our palms to identify someone?
My plant is STILL alive. My bamboo died.
It's hot outside, so I think I am going to have a drink now and sit on the floor like i'm on vacation.
Adios.
In other news...
The lady with octuplets is INSANE.
For the Love of Ray J is a Sin. (B, you better NOT be watching it.)
I did my taxes and am getting a N-i-i-c-e REFUND! yahoo
it seems ALL of my friends will be married in the next two years and I aint a bit jealous. just happy :-)
Girl Scout Cookie season is the best. I cant wait for the deliveries.
My brother is insane. Check out his 25 things(s) on FB.
I am reading books. Flowers for Algernon and The Giver (kid lit for the j-o-b)
My hair is fabulous. Still.
I am addicted to dried mangoes.
Big Love is the best!
Sweet potato fries are kinda like crack.
Do white people know we are talking about them when we point to our palms to identify someone?
My plant is STILL alive. My bamboo died.
It's hot outside, so I think I am going to have a drink now and sit on the floor like i'm on vacation.
Adios.
Randomness
Okay, so i am 4 days into the fast and I have lost 4 pounds! 4 days of no cheese, no milk, no butter, no chicken, no fish, no shrimp, no ground turkey, no nothing LOL but its going well. I am not REALLY missing it.. except for the no-booze. Teaching makes it so that there is nothing more relaxing after the end of a tough tough day than a glass of wine, or a rum and coke, on the couch with some American Idol.
I am currently reading The Giver. I am trying to grade papers. My co-teacher hasnt come to work in 3 days.. well she did, but she left early today... and told me she wont be in tomorrow. yadda yadda.. meanwhile I have tons of papers to grade. Not so sure what my kids are going to do this weekend. I just need some sleep.
A good nights sleep. So I'm gonna try to crawl into bed early tonight. G'night.
I am currently reading The Giver. I am trying to grade papers. My co-teacher hasnt come to work in 3 days.. well she did, but she left early today... and told me she wont be in tomorrow. yadda yadda.. meanwhile I have tons of papers to grade. Not so sure what my kids are going to do this weekend. I just need some sleep.
A good nights sleep. So I'm gonna try to crawl into bed early tonight. G'night.
Update
1. I finished a book already.. :-) So I am done with my book for January. Baby Proof was great. I enjoyed it.. wasnt the best book ever, but it kept me interested enough that sometimes it would run across my mind and I would wish I had the book so I could continue the story.
2. I am still 159 even with the boozing of the past 10 days.. and the aforementioned fast will start on Sunday.
3. Def have been late to work on so many occasions. I think I am going to put something up on my wall at work that says "___ days since you were late to work." Like those signs they have at factories counting their accidents..
4. I watched less tv.
Overally, I am totally chillin this weekend, between Inaugurating with the Obamas, and kickin it with my kids, I have been exhausted, soooo I am in the house this weekend, watching Big Love and drinking.. (until the fast) :-)
What are you up to this weekend?
2. I am still 159 even with the boozing of the past 10 days.. and the aforementioned fast will start on Sunday.
3. Def have been late to work on so many occasions. I think I am going to put something up on my wall at work that says "___ days since you were late to work." Like those signs they have at factories counting their accidents..
4. I watched less tv.
Overally, I am totally chillin this weekend, between Inaugurating with the Obamas, and kickin it with my kids, I have been exhausted, soooo I am in the house this weekend, watching Big Love and drinking.. (until the fast) :-)
What are you up to this weekend?
Black Like Me.
I am officially a patriot. I took a picture with an American flag. I waved one yesterday at the Presidential Inauguration of the 44th president Barack Obama. This is not the first time politics has peaked my interest. I fell in love with American history thanks to Ms. Amdur in 10th grade. I hated and loved reading American Political Tradition by Richard Hofstadter, and loved learning about Thomas Jefferson and Alexander Hamilton, and the many sides of President Lincoln. I watched the State of the Union during Clinton's final year, and was captivated because I believed what he was telling me. I voted for Gore and then Kerry and every local and state primary and general election in between. I had absentee ballots in college, and have my homepage set to nytimes.com.
But this is different. The feeling that I have had over the past 6 months, that Barack and Michelle Obama have given me is a newfound sense that I shouldn't just vote because it is my duty as a citizen of the United States and because of all of the people who died so that I, a black woman, could have the right to vote, but that I am now an American. I finally can relate to American flag t-shirts and 4th of July celebrations. I feel like I am finally an American not because the president is also Black, but because he is Black like me.
The Obamas are like me. Michelle grew up on the South Side of Chicago and even went to my high school. She travelled off to the Ivy League, but stayed committed to her people. I love the Obamas cause they kept the bass in their voices, and make me feel like now, that is American too. Finally, we have a leader who isn't stand up for my people because it is what's right, but because he is my people. I am excited. I feel a part of the American Dream, fully.
It doesn't hurt that Barack goes to Ben's Chili Bowl and says, Naaah We straight when getting his change. I SAY THAT TOO!! That Michelle and Barack started the first dance with his hand in hers, but finished it, like I did in the old school basement parties, with my hands wrapped around my boos neck. I love that he eats at Italian Fiesta and lived next to Harold's Chicken Shack. We have a shared story and shared dreams and if he is the face of America, then I know I am truly an American, now.
So, thank you Mr. President, for making the American Dream my new reality. And I stand with Michelle, and say, for the first time in my adult life, I am proud of MY country.
But this is different. The feeling that I have had over the past 6 months, that Barack and Michelle Obama have given me is a newfound sense that I shouldn't just vote because it is my duty as a citizen of the United States and because of all of the people who died so that I, a black woman, could have the right to vote, but that I am now an American. I finally can relate to American flag t-shirts and 4th of July celebrations. I feel like I am finally an American not because the president is also Black, but because he is Black like me.
The Obamas are like me. Michelle grew up on the South Side of Chicago and even went to my high school. She travelled off to the Ivy League, but stayed committed to her people. I love the Obamas cause they kept the bass in their voices, and make me feel like now, that is American too. Finally, we have a leader who isn't stand up for my people because it is what's right, but because he is my people. I am excited. I feel a part of the American Dream, fully.
It doesn't hurt that Barack goes to Ben's Chili Bowl and says, Naaah We straight when getting his change. I SAY THAT TOO!! That Michelle and Barack started the first dance with his hand in hers, but finished it, like I did in the old school basement parties, with my hands wrapped around my boos neck. I love that he eats at Italian Fiesta and lived next to Harold's Chicken Shack. We have a shared story and shared dreams and if he is the face of America, then I know I am truly an American, now.
So, thank you Mr. President, for making the American Dream my new reality. And I stand with Michelle, and say, for the first time in my adult life, I am proud of MY country.
Wow
Soooo this weekend was fun.. I had birthday festivities galore and enjoyed every moment of it.. and shall I say every calorie of cake, birthday dinner and birthday cocktails. was it my birthday? no.. but hell, I'll use any reason to celebrate.. I did well until the b-day stuff.. but I am still afraid of the weigh in im supposed to be supplying on Monday. But you'll get it.. even if I'm at my fattiest.
In other news, I am more than half way through my book, Baby Proof by Emily Giffin. I read Something Borrowed by her last year and cant wait to read Something Blue.. I recommend Something Borrowed.. i loved every page.. Anything else I need to say? I dont think so. Nothing else is topical. Later dudes.
I'll be fat on Monday :-)
In other news, I am more than half way through my book, Baby Proof by Emily Giffin. I read Something Borrowed by her last year and cant wait to read Something Blue.. I recommend Something Borrowed.. i loved every page.. Anything else I need to say? I dont think so. Nothing else is topical. Later dudes.
I'll be fat on Monday :-)